If I don’t become a nurse then maybe I would like to be a teacher. A good teacher. A teacher who cares about her students and leaves a lasting impact on them.
Sometimes I wish to no longer live - not because I am suffering, but because I cannot handle the idea of other people suffering. Sometimes I’ll just be sitting around doing nothing and then I realize that there are millions of kids who live in poverty, and there are millions of other kids who live with terminal diseases who won’t even be able to live their life, and there are millions of people who are alone and suffering. And I just don’t like the idea of people being in pain. I wish I could take it away. I wish this Earth wasn’t so cruel. I understand that there exists beauty on this Earth - but there is just so much pain and suffering as well.
I’ve been running a lot of errands lately - getting health forms filled out, going to clinics, getting tested and stuff - all without my parents. And It feels weird. I’m growing up and I don’t know whether to be excited or scared. I’m so used to having my parents apply for things for me but now I’m doing them by myself without their help. I feel like a responsible big kid now.
I can’t wait until the day where I have a rad group of friends and whenever it’s one of our birthday’s we’d go out to eat and then we’d all pitch in to treat the birthday boy/girl.
I seriously don’t even know why I still put up with you. You’re always preaching about “family first” but we are never first in your book. Your boyfriend is more important to you than we are. We always have to cover you. You never cover for us. We are not even an option to you unless you need something from us.
You’re a piece of shit cousin lol
I always had such high expectations for my group of friends. I dreamed of spending halloweens together where we would dress up and trick or treat and I always thought that we would surprise each other with graduation dinners and birthday dinners but those things never really happened. I just hope that when I go to University I’ll find a rad group of people to kick it with who are down to do those kind of things. My friends never really were the type.